...trouble...

It's hard not to slip in to old horrible habits again...I don't want to be detailed about it, since it's so shameful. Plus it would mean the down fall of my upward turn. It's like a former smoker...taking another puff to see what it's like. I can't really talk to anyone about it, since I know what their going to say and I know that means I shouldn't do it, but damn it this isn't fair. I WANT TO SO BADLY. Damn it I need a hobby to stay away from trouble.