All the girls standing in line for the bathroom

I've cried so much today it's horrible. For some reason I'm just really emotional, I'm not blaming it that one thing...., just going to chop it up to the fact that I'm still alone while everyone else is coupling up right before me. I guess I'm just wanting a connection with someone, but yea this is me I'm talking about and apparently that's not allowed to happen. The ones I think are going to work out they usually go no where and we just stay friends... eck.. not like having friends is horrible, but some friendships can go beyond talking. Eh yeah I don't know I want to live alone and see if I can be level headed about things and life. I told Rachel, what I did a while back ago and now I feel better to a point just still hallow about how I had to get over a huge mistake in my life. There is probably more I should say, but I'll leave it for next time.

A Pisces female is sensual and feminine, possessing fragility and matchless intuition. You are well-known for your sense of humor, but only your friends and relatives know that you use it as self-defense. You like to live in a dreamland, and sometimes lash out if your emotions have been compromised.

The Fog!

I like driving in the fog. For me it's easier than driving in the
rain...yea. Its kinda creepy at points. I don't have much to say just
that I want things to change. I'll probably post more later if things
are more notable or worth typing about.

Nachos & Strawberry Soda

What a mistake I have made. I don't know why I do this horrible things to myself, now I have to do something alone which is a horror story within it's self. I just want to give up on making choices in my life and let someone tell me what to do for a while, but I just like being my own person who apprently who doesn't think things through. I need a friend well maybe a professional I can talk to and help me stop doing horrible deeds...gah! Well maybe some Nachos and Strawberry soda will sooth my crazy ass mind.

...look it's a puppy?!

I love pictures of the sky. It just makes me think of a happier place. Clouds are beautiful and mellow me out, maybe it's because when I was younger my mother, sister, and I would lay on a blanket and look up at the sky and picture things in the clouds. Just simple graces in the world like the sky just amaze me and make me feel somewhat better about things that I'm dealing with currently....eh idk.

Srsly?!

I almost did something horrible! We'll just say MDB almost got me again. Fuck I hate this and it just fucking blows that I don't have a unbais person to voice and vent this current situation out to...geez. I know I can talk to my friends, but its hate to talk to them when you know their answer and why they'd have their reasonings behind them. Not saying I don't trust or value your friends thoughts/views on my personal dilemmas, just that someone who isn't caught up in the past and current hype just make discussing the current problem easier with out feeling shameful.<br><br>I need to realize I'm 23 and I'm still allow to make mistakes and think to hell with peoples opinions when I wanna be that mega bratty bitch and make stupid, but slightly fucked up errors in my life. I haven't lived and I know I haven't and it's just hard not to understand why I crave to make this mistake...I just to stop talking in hidden speak that's very obvious if you where a close friend of mine.<br><br>...nuff said I need it and I want it, maybe I just need to find a different access point to this....sorry for spelling erro
rs and grammar...I'm on a phone so not everything can be perfect.. And idk if the ..br.. Html code works when I'm on my phone, but we'll find out!I <3 you all and I mean you all! Even if it is Dakota only reading it.

Spotted Dick and Golden Steams...Yummi

There are just some foods I wouldn't eat. Life is going...yea it's going. Just back to work and goodbye vacation and sadly I don't miss vacation all to much, it was a bust once I camr back to town. But hanging out with friends and taking random photos of foods can be loads of fun. I feel like everyone else has a more adventuresome life than me. I feel like al I do is work and then come home to be bored and then sleep then work again. I keep bitching that a new a hobby and I actually do hopefully after I officailly own my car then I can discover a new interest/hobby in this dull life I seem to be trapped in...ciao for now.

P.S.Hey Dakota :P

I think I may want to take up photography as a hobby, its relaxing and it just allows me to express myself. All three of these photos where taken with my cell phone, I think it's pretty decent quailty, but I don't know.Sky photos are amazing I feel esp. When you see sun beams showing through the clouds. Eh I need a new life and a new location.

...trouble...

It's hard not to slip in to old horrible habits again...I don't want to be detailed about it, since it's so shameful. Plus it would mean the down fall of my upward turn. It's like a former smoker...taking another puff to see what it's like. I can't really talk to anyone about it, since I know what their going to say and I know that means I shouldn't do it, but damn it this isn't fair. I WANT TO SO BADLY. Damn it I need a hobby to stay away from trouble.