Umm

Long time not post/update I know!...sorry

All I have to say currently is gtfo :)

And blah to you fucking boys...

	I want one

Fw: The Griefing of Chris

-----Original Message-----
From: Isaiah Hall <isaiahhall@tmail.com>
To: Torshanda Farlow <jinixs@tmail.com>
Subject: The Griefing of Chris
Date: Mon, 20 Oct 2008 12:00:23 -0400

Ha ha ha! I wrote "poop!"
--isaiah

It's about time...

It's about damn time I've posted...yea nothings really changed...just
new crazy social things I have to try...aka a date and trying to not
spaz out about life anymore...I doubt the spaz one will happen.

I don't like to be told things don't work...it makes me want to make it
work to prove the nay sayers wrong...fuck I'm not sure what I'm suppose
to do after this...

I'm just happy for the close few friends I have here near me. Small
numbers with huge hearts its amazing how much some people can care and
worry about one person and not hold it over a person's head, I'm not use
to it. I just want to say be greatful for the connections you make with
people in your life some people are more amazing than you can ever
imagine.

loves
tosho lol :)

My Hero...Big Bird...nuff said.

Silly trips that don't affect the hips...

Say my name Bastian

You're nothing with out a name...

Well a few days ago I was asked a zillions questions about why/how black
people come up with crazy names. I had nothing to say, I don't even
know where may name comes from and this old woman is fussing at me about
it like it's my choice to have a name like Torshanda...ugh she was old
so I didn't yell back, but I wanted to say there are crazy name given by
white people to...ugh oh well.

Shuffle Play...Write?!

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.

Opening Credits:
Yellowcard ~ Martin Sheen or JFK

Waking Up:
The Postal Service ~ Such Great Heights

First Day At School:
The White Stripes ~ Seven Nation Army

Falling In Love:
The White Stripes ~ Blue Orchid
Fight Song:
Mateo Messina ~ Up the Spout

Breaking Up:
The Postal Service ~ Brand New Colony

Prom:
Weezer ~ The World Has Turned and Left Me Here

Life's Okay:
The Procession ~ Major & Minor

Mental Breakdown:
Stroke 9 ~ Next Time

Driving:
Weezer ~ The Greatest Man That Ever Lived

Flashback:
The Slip ~ Even Rats

Getting Back Together:
Kimya Dawson ~ My Rollercoaster

Wedding:
Kimya Dawson ~ So Nice So Smart

Birth Of Child:
The Moldy Peaches ~ Anyone Else But You

Final Battle:
Weezer ~ Heart Song

Death Scene:
Stroke 9 ~ Little Black Backpack

Funeral Song:
Yellowcard ~ Holly Wood Dead

End Credits:
The White Stripes ~Fell In Love With A Girl

Photos

This is what I do in my free time...sad I know. I have a lot on my mind
and it's annoying, since it's the shit you want to vent about that no
one would really listen to. I just know I need time away from basically
everyone that's in winchester...and I'll leave it like that.

I want to blog about something meaningful, but there isn't anything
worth wild to talk about going on in my life right now. I work and go
home, then stress over things and people I shouldn't even give a second
thought about, but I'm a worry wart. I just need to remember that
people aren't who they say they are no matter how well you think you
know them. People are people and worry about their current being and
that's all not about their possible effect on other peoples lifes. I
don't know where I'm going with this so I'll just leave it be. I need a
vacation away maybe alone and just to give me time to clear my head and
heart from all the things that have been eating away at me, since I
don't speak up loud enough for my problems and fears to be resolved.

A few pics from 4th street Live....

All the girls standing in line for the bathroom

I've cried so much today it's horrible. For some reason I'm just really emotional, I'm not blaming it that one thing...., just going to chop it up to the fact that I'm still alone while everyone else is coupling up right before me. I guess I'm just wanting a connection with someone, but yea this is me I'm talking about and apparently that's not allowed to happen. The ones I think are going to work out they usually go no where and we just stay friends... eck.. not like having friends is horrible, but some friendships can go beyond talking. Eh yeah I don't know I want to live alone and see if I can be level headed about things and life. I told Rachel, what I did a while back ago and now I feel better to a point just still hallow about how I had to get over a huge mistake in my life. There is probably more I should say, but I'll leave it for next time.

A Pisces female is sensual and feminine, possessing fragility and matchless intuition. You are well-known for your sense of humor, but only your friends and relatives know that you use it as self-defense. You like to live in a dreamland, and sometimes lash out if your emotions have been compromised.

The Fog!

I like driving in the fog. For me it's easier than driving in the
rain...yea. Its kinda creepy at points. I don't have much to say just
that I want things to change. I'll probably post more later if things
are more notable or worth typing about.

Nachos & Strawberry Soda

What a mistake I have made. I don't know why I do this horrible things to myself, now I have to do something alone which is a horror story within it's self. I just want to give up on making choices in my life and let someone tell me what to do for a while, but I just like being my own person who apprently who doesn't think things through. I need a friend well maybe a professional I can talk to and help me stop doing horrible deeds...gah! Well maybe some Nachos and Strawberry soda will sooth my crazy ass mind.

...look it's a puppy?!

I love pictures of the sky. It just makes me think of a happier place. Clouds are beautiful and mellow me out, maybe it's because when I was younger my mother, sister, and I would lay on a blanket and look up at the sky and picture things in the clouds. Just simple graces in the world like the sky just amaze me and make me feel somewhat better about things that I'm dealing with currently....eh idk.

Srsly?!

I almost did something horrible! We'll just say MDB almost got me again. Fuck I hate this and it just fucking blows that I don't have a unbais person to voice and vent this current situation out to...geez. I know I can talk to my friends, but its hate to talk to them when you know their answer and why they'd have their reasonings behind them. Not saying I don't trust or value your friends thoughts/views on my personal dilemmas, just that someone who isn't caught up in the past and current hype just make discussing the current problem easier with out feeling shameful.<br><br>I need to realize I'm 23 and I'm still allow to make mistakes and think to hell with peoples opinions when I wanna be that mega bratty bitch and make stupid, but slightly fucked up errors in my life. I haven't lived and I know I haven't and it's just hard not to understand why I crave to make this mistake...I just to stop talking in hidden speak that's very obvious if you where a close friend of mine.<br><br>...nuff said I need it and I want it, maybe I just need to find a different access point to this....sorry for spelling erro
rs and grammar...I'm on a phone so not everything can be perfect.. And idk if the ..br.. Html code works when I'm on my phone, but we'll find out!I <3 you all and I mean you all! Even if it is Dakota only reading it.

Spotted Dick and Golden Steams...Yummi

There are just some foods I wouldn't eat. Life is going...yea it's going. Just back to work and goodbye vacation and sadly I don't miss vacation all to much, it was a bust once I camr back to town. But hanging out with friends and taking random photos of foods can be loads of fun. I feel like everyone else has a more adventuresome life than me. I feel like al I do is work and then come home to be bored and then sleep then work again. I keep bitching that a new a hobby and I actually do hopefully after I officailly own my car then I can discover a new interest/hobby in this dull life I seem to be trapped in...ciao for now.

P.S.Hey Dakota :P

I think I may want to take up photography as a hobby, its relaxing and it just allows me to express myself. All three of these photos where taken with my cell phone, I think it's pretty decent quailty, but I don't know.Sky photos are amazing I feel esp. When you see sun beams showing through the clouds. Eh I need a new life and a new location.